Scarborough Fair Recording

This is a very old recording (and even older photos! My long hair looks so different!) But it’s a beautiful song and I still love how it turned out. I’m looking forward to making lots of new videos now. Enjoy 🙂

-Laura

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Pain is just one kind of sensation…

I enjoy pain sometimes, but I don’t consider myself a hard masochist.
I love sensation play. The more the better. Massages, head scratches, cuddles, being blindfolded while being tied up with rope, combining pain with pleasure… I love it. It’s apparently what gets me to subspace. Pain alone doesn’t seem to have the same effect, though on rare occasions I might get an endorphin high from it.
For me, pain is just another kind of sensation. It’s one of many that I enjoy. But I don’t like pain just for the sake of pain. I just like how different sensations make me feel. Sometimes I want to hurt and get lots of marks, or to have my tense muscles be beaten into a looser state. Other times I want the sensations to be soothing and pleasurable, especially if I’m blindfolded.
But more than anything, I like variety and the element of surprise. It makes me feel alive and excited. I like not knowing which sensation I’ll feel next. Being blindfolded and having my hearing slightly muffled by a large blindfold can help me tune out distractions and focus on what my body is feeling, and that seems to help me reach subspace.
And when a power dynamic is added into this mix… (*Melts into a little pile of happy goo*). Even if I’m not particularly in the mood for pain, if I’m submissive with someone I want to be bent to their will. (I’m not active with this right now but I do crave it. It’s an itch that needs scratching eventually.)
It’s interesting how masochism can be so different from person to person. Some people seem to just want pain, pain, and more pain while for others it’s just one little piece of the sensory pie. What does masochism look like for you?

Jedi Kitten’s YouTube: Musical BDSM Scenes!

This was my first attempt at using my violin in a BDSM scene. I wanted to try alternating between playing my violin and using my bow as a cane for impact play. I didn’t want to risk my good bow until I knew it wouldn’t break, so this is my very old and terrible sounding bow. Please forgive the squeaking! I also discovered that I would do much better with music playing along with me so I don’t lose my place or get off on the rhythm. I took what I learned, performed such a scene at Rascal’s Dungeon Party, and I got lots of applause! I’m looking forward to doing a lot more with these musical scenes.

-Laura

Rascal’s Dungeon Party Outfit

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I had so much fun wearing this blue wig! The cat ears and my kinky boots are quickly becoming my favorite accessories. Rascal’s is one of my favorite BDSM events in Vancouver, I highly recommend checking it out. You may even hear me play my violin in a kinky musical scene now and then!

-Laura

Hot Topic Dragon Ear Cuff!

I got this ear cuff from Hot Topic and I LOVE IT. Especially when my hair is shaved or buzzed on the side. I’ve worn it with a corset, casual tank top, punk ish outfits involving a leather vest, and I’m excited to play around with more fashion combinations. I like how one piece of jewelry can be used in so many ways.

-Laura